Funny Thing

Funny thing… the more I see you, the more I talk to you… the more I need to. Around a year ago I wrote that it's like an addiction… I can never have enough because I always just need more and more and more…

That's not wrong, but… it isn't quite right, either. Addictions tend to be negative… things to avoid, to try to break yourself of. Like… me posting letters in unsentletters and daydreaming that you're actually reading them. But this isn't that… there isn't anything negative about this. It's just… love. I just love you, and every time I see you I love you more. Every time I hear your voice, I immediately start longing to hear it again. There have been times when I've missed you, even when you were standing right in front of me… Because I knew it had to end, I knew we'd each go back to our own things, and then the waiting would begin anew… But, that's ok. I'm not here to be wistful, or to complain about how long I sometimes have to wait to talk to you… Or about other people (who I like very much) stealing precious moments of the little time I get to spend with you…

No, I'm writing to celebrate you. To celebrate my love for you. To tell you that… when I look at you, I know it's going to be a lovely day (to borrow from one of my current favorite poets…). To tell you that you are truly a vision of beauty, inside and out. That I just cannot believe what an amazing person you are. That I just cannot believe how gorgeous you always are, always have been, and always will be. That I just cannot believe how lucky I am to have you in my life, even if it's not (yet) in the capacity I dream for.

I'm writing to tell you that I can't wait to spend so much time with you in the next week or so… Oh, my love. I'm going to be soaking up your presence like a sponge. Gosh, I just cannot wait… I'm like a kid in December.

Well. It'll be here soon enough.

G,night, my love. I'll see you soon!

Impatiently yours,
♒️

(…I confess I'm also writing to tell you that I am merely a man, and my thumb came dangerously close to hitting the heart on that one selfie… oh, my lovely, lovely lady…)